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[23 Mar 2005|05:15pm] |
New joranol
or journal on a stick.
tomorrowillcome
add me
peace
out
I promise I won't do that again.
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[20 Mar 2005|10:29am] |
Going up to Summit for Palm Sunday. Talk to you guys tomorrow.
GOOD LUCK TODAY HEATHER!
<3 you.
And thanks for keeping me entertained at like 11, Megan.
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[19 Mar 2005|12:14pm] |
Well here. I'll tell you how I feel.
Well my self-esteem is about nonexistant. I TRY to be social. Plans fall through because i SUCK at it. And I feel about this big *spreads fingers apart*.
So pretty much what has been triggering my moodiness is Ally's last couple of entries. They both have a summary of pretty much what happened that night or the night before or whatever. Inside jokes, pictures, the works. And. It just makes me upset. Because I don't get those jokes. And I'm not in those pictures. I'm not next to a heart. And I'm referred to the general word "friends". Ally you know me. And you know that I'm a selfish, attention seeking bastard. I don't want to be your friend. I want to be your GOOD friend. Who makes it to the profile/livejournal. Who makes those inside jokes. I wanna be the guy you come to when you need advice or a laugh. Not for homework help and when you're bored. No I'm not asian. Or hott. Or small and cute. Or whatever. But. *sigh*.
It wasnt your fault I was "depressed". It was mine. Because I just can't understand the fact that I will always be a GUEST STAR. Never part of the regular cast. It's always been that way. And I'm still complaining about the same thing.
So I'm sorry. Sorry for causing so much fucking drama I really am. I'm just so jealous because I've never been with more than like 2 friends at a time.
I don't think that's my fault though.
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[15 Mar 2005|08:16pm] |
Advanced Global Personality Test Results | Extraversion | |||||||||||| | 50% | | Stability | |||||||||||||| | 53% | | Orderliness | |||| | 20% | | Empathy | |||||||||||| | 43% | | Interdependence | |||||||||| | 36% | | Intellectual | |||||||||||||||| | 63% | | Mystical | |||||||||||| | 50% | | Artistic | |||||||||||||||| | 70% | | Religious | |||| | 16% | | Hedonism | || | 10% | | Materialism | |||||| | 23% | | Narcissism | |||||||||||| | 50% | | Adventurousness | |||||||||| | 36% | | Work ethic | |||||||||| | 36% | | Self absorbed | |||||||||||| | 50% | | Conflict seeking | |||||||||| | 36% | | Need to dominate | |||||||||||| | 50% | | | Romantic | |||||||||||||| | 56% | | Avoidant | |||||||||||||||| | 63% | | Anti-authority | |||||||||||||||| | 70% | | Wealth | |||||||||| | 36% | | Dependency | |||||||||||| | 50% | | Change averse | |||||||||| | 36% | | Cautiousness | |||||||||||| | 50% | | Individuality | |||||||||||||||||||| | 90% | | Sexuality | |||||||||||||| | 56% | | Peter pan complex | |||||||||||||| | 56% | | Physical security | |||||||||||||||| | 70% | | Food indulgent | |||||| | 30% | | Histrionic | |||||||||||||||| | 63% | | Paranoia | |||| | 16% | | Vanity | |||||||||||| | 50% | | Hypersensitivity | |||||||||||||||| | 63% | | Female cliche | || | 10% | |
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[13 Mar 2005|10:44am] |
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You know these things always make me emotional. The play was awesome, especially the tallest frog, the one in the purple shirt, and the right spotlight. Heather came with me =) Her hair was awesome =) and Steven gave me a ride haha. But yeah. I couldn't help smiling, only because I was so proud and it was just so amazing. Lindsays voice was awesome. And she was beautiful. And I loved her hair. Except I suck at being social. So yeah Linds.. gimmie some time, I'll be just as crazy as you. Elise gave me a hug and she warm as usual =). Joycel gave me a hug and that made me smilee =). Josh. Hahahaha. You know. Josh is about the most awesome friend ever. You can just tell that he's one of those that you're gonna be with for the rest of your school career. I love all of you guys. It makes me wish I was a part of it. Next year. I just have to build up some confidence and be a little more hyper more often. And maybe learn to sing if I'm gonna do the musical. But you know after I was thinking about all of this, I remembered. I'm in the band. That's my terf. One thing that I think I'm pretty good at. Music. So I'm making you all come to my concert which is in May. I'm gonna have maddddd solos. You know. I was thinking about which play I liked better, this one or "Working" and I decided that I didn't like either better than the other. Because I usually don't like the plays themselves. It's the people that are in them, and how well they preform. Last year there was Ashley and Lindsay and Elise and Sara but this year there were more people I knew, and including them, and ESPECIALLY JOYCEL AND JOSH. It was so hilarious seeing the stage crew come out.. and it was like TALL TALLER TALL TALL SHORRRRTTT TALL. But I love you Joycel. And at the end Heather waved to Lindsay and I could see her mouth "Was she waving to me?" and then she waved and then I waved. Speaking of waved, we did the wave. And then we had a puppet show on some guys back. Because the spot light was a little bit on him. Haha. I love all of you. You guys are the best. And I love my Heather who was there with me :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd
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[05 Mar 2005|05:16pm] |
Y-marks yes
N-marks no
M-marks maybe
W0ULD Y0U...
[ ] go out with me?
[ ] give me your number?
[ ] kiss me?
[ ] let me kiss you?
[ ] watch a movie with me?
[ ] take me out to dinner?
[ ] drive me somewhere
[ ] take a shower with me?
[ ] be my bf/gf?
[ ] have a fling with me?
[ ] buy me a drink?
[ ] take me home for the night?
[ ] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[ ] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[ ] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
[ ] give me a piggyback ride?
[ ] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
D0 Y0U...
[ ] think im cute?
[ ] want to kiss me?
[ ] want to cuddle wit me?
[ ] want to hook up with me?
ARE WE...
[ ] aquintences?
[ ] friends?
[ ] in a relationship?
[ ] gonna have kids?
AM i...
[ ] smart?
[ ] cute?
[ ] funny?
[ ] cool?
HAVE Y0U EVER...
[ ] thought about me?
[ ] thought there might be an "us"?
[ ] thought about hookin up with me?
[ ] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[ ] wished i was there?
ARE Y0U...
[ ] happy you know me?
[ ] mad at me?
[ ] thinkin bout me?
Do it and be honest and I promise I wont let Heather beat you up.
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[03 Mar 2005|02:51pm] |
Everyone LOVES Quizilla!
the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
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when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
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have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them. Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
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job where you can express yourself and your
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What kind of kiss are you?
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Don't know how true that one is.
In your eyes, people see shards of ice
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you! You want to be able to reach out and love
them but... You can't for some reason... You're
just too.... You :P Underneath that cold
exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to
let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would
probably be anywhere up high where you can look
down on life below you, like the roof of an
apartment building... Your eyes resemble a
saddened, crestfallen person seeking out
attention, but doesn't know how to handle it.
However, you do find comfort from your friends,
they're always there for you, and they know the
REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather
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That's SNUFF!
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[01 Mar 2005|04:49pm] |
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[28 Feb 2005|09:48pm] |
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Distressed child
O lonely child
Please rise from your knees
I have noght to give you but my own wisdom
"Comfort me"
For this I cannot
Silly girl,
You will not find comfort here
Abandoned child
O faithful child
You lean upon my weary chest
Boney and brittle
"Hold me"
For this I cannot
Silly girl,
You'll find no comfort here
Depressed child
O deprived child
You embrace me in your tiny arms
There's nothing much to hold
"Keep me warm"
For this I cannot
Silly girl,
You won't find comfort here.
Beautiful child
O loving child
You fall asleep in my arms
And dream the dreams of long lost hope
Poor child
O helpless child
Your chest no longer rises
Your sleep has turned to days
O child, gone cold
The color gone from your cheeks
I told you girl,
You have found no comfort here.
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So yeah. I wrote that. I have no clue why. It made me cry. Not the poem itself, but how and why I wrote it. And if you ask me, I'll answer honestly: I don't know.
Good night.
Still a little out of it.
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[27 Feb 2005|07:07pm] |
I don't know if we're having school tomorrow. But Dad might let me stay home again. Maybe I'll get to talk to Heatherrrrrr <3. I hope we don't have school. Then I def. get to talk to herr. Sorry Megan =( I tried. <3 you.
School will be fun though. I love school.
<3 Heather you're the greatest.
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[25 Feb 2005|03:23pm] |
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( ) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
( ) saw a shooting star
( ) been to any other countries besides the united states
( ) had a serious surgery
( ) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
( ) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) skipped school
( ) saw a therapist
( ) played spin the bottle
( ) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
( ) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
( ) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
( ) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been skiing/snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
( ) purposely hurt yourself
( ) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
HA BEAT THAT HEATHER, MISS BORING HERSELF.
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| Global Personality Test Results | Stability (53%) medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness (26%) low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion (45%) medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.
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trait snapshot:
messy, disorganized, not rule conscious, rebellious, rash, weird, ambivalent about chaos, likes bizarre things, anti-authority, not good at saving money, not a perfectionist, leaves many things unfinished, low self control, strange, desires more attention, romantic daydreamer, abstract
Tim in a nutshell.
So far Stevo and Heather are coming on Friday. I'm so excited. It's nice being social. JOYCEL YOU BETTER COME. TELL THEM I DONT HAVE A PENIS.
And then I might go to the movies with Cassie and her mom. For some reason that sounds really appealing. Plus I always wanted to meet Cassie's mom.
I got new pjs. They say TOP BANANA. I didnt realize until i wore them that they were BANANA. I have a dollar that has banana written on it..
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[19 Feb 2005|04:53pm] |
"I want you to ask me three truly sincere, solid, and meaningful questions about me in a comment. They can be anything you want. Anything at all. And if you want... You can do it anonymously."
No, no you can't do it anonymously. Okay? And lemme tell ya, they can't be ANYTHING. I mean gosh. There are just some things you keep quiet.
But yeah go for it if you want. GO TO THE BLADES OF LOVE, NOW >:O.
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[19 Feb 2005|12:41pm] |
Aww, I <3 you Heather. We'll do something this Satreeday. I'll get Stevo over and we can have a BASH. Tim is known for his wonderful bashes.
Look at the entry below this for beautiful eyeliner pics.
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hey. this is christa, tims amazingly amazing cousin. now me, our other cousin alex, and alex's friend kerry put some LOVERLY eye liner
newsflash, alex is used to punching flubby stomachs and she punched tim and tim got mad. hahah
so, we put on eyeliner and mouse-ified his hair. it looks amazing.
how amazing?
well, my friends, you are about to find out!!
( THE BLADES OF LOVE )
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Going back to North Jersey. Don't know when I'll be back. Probably by Tuesday to go to school. Hopefully earlier so I can do something. Probably not. Sorry Heather and Steven. Looks like I'm booked too.
<3Each and every one of you
Especially the one with the name that begins with H. Herman. Harold. Hermanita. Hermanelda. Hoofton Mifflin?
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Yo I wont be here
I won't be there
Actually I will be there
But you don't care
I'm gonna go up north
I'm gonna go party
I'm gonna go eat
Just like marti [gras] (er..)
I won't be back
Til Sunday afternoon
I won't be back
Til I get a balloon
It's gonna be a long drive
I'm gonna go eat
I'm gonna make it supersize
And get a lot of meat.
While I'm gone,
I hope you miss me
When I'm gettin all da ladies ( JUST. KIDDING. HEATHER. lmao)
At my uncle's 50
I hope you enjoyed my little rap
It aint that little, I'll give you that.
I'm out.
Half a Dolla signin out yo.
Peace.
White people translation:
I won't be here. I'll be in North Jeresy for my Uncle's 50th. And I'm gonna eat a lot. I won't be back until like 2 on Sunday. And I'm def. not gonna get all the ladies...
Respectfully yours,
Timothy Vitale
I'm such an uh-oh oreo. I could go for an oreo. ALLY I BET YOU WANT A COOKIE NOW. JUST LIKE WHEN I PUT THAT HERSHEY KISS COOKIE IN THE MICROWAVE.. IT GOT ALL GOOEY AND CHOCOLATELY AND MELTY AND WARM.. IT WAS LIKE TAKING A BITE OUT OF HEAVEN.
I could go for a cannoli.. but my cannoli's empty =(
Heather I effin love you and I'm gonna be thinking about you the whole day. <3
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